Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in Sweetie Pie's LiveJournal:

Thursday, January 8th, 2004
2:55 pm	12/11/03 beating me down to a spec on the floor my smiles all frowns to see me cry is your own rath you think you have power over me? i think not see now here me out raise you fist with out a doubt strike my face one too many times you begin to pace when i scream all you can do is chime power is just a word that makes you a coward i see you now with hatred showered say your sorry and you miss me with so much glee so blissfully no more apoligies why can't you see all the pain that you've caused me your vocabulary is full of bullshit so many lies you fucking hypocrit! i cut all ties! (Comment on this)
2:50 pm	12/11/03 friends forever or so she stated she wanted comfort and not to be hated the need to fit in with the "popular" crowd it's just high school not one of us is proud proud of what you ask to be something were not talk shit all you want they are just words to call me your friend takes a lot of nerds graduation is coming and i'm so fucking giddy plans for college the same of course never to part i show no remorse you followed me if you can remember because when we started school i chose not to surrender i was who i am and will be plan old me but soon to find out friends we could not be with the need to be the same as everyone else it shows who you are just a tiny little elf. (Comment on this)
2:43 pm	12/11/03 time will tell or so i thought why do i wait i wait to be sought i don't want your pitty when all i can do is cry i know you feel pretty shit for the things that you said but just think what was said was said i put too much of me aside but by you i abide those harsh words that you said keeping them all in my head to where do we go from here? i will love you till i'm dead don't wait for me you said roughly so bad that it hurts all inside of me to hear those words i'm terrified to say i love you so much now put out to bay why do i wait i ask my self i seem to be waiting for that piece of my heart upon your shelf i dwell on the things that were said when we went separate ways i always thought it's just a mixed up maze (Comment on this)
2:40 pm	sorry they are a little outta order~ 12/12/03 speak no evil to the one you love with the devil inside you as pure as a white glove you say you don't mean the shit that you do but you need help the only one who can help you, is you mindless self pitty thinking only about you no care in the world but what could i do? i have one thing to say to you our relationship is done no more wasted tears on your sorry childish ass i do not need you your're now in my past. (Comment on this)
2:35 pm	12/27/03 my day hasn't come to say my goodbyes to you it may sound crazy but i dream of the day that i die i look at that day so shiny and bright why would i fret or put up a fight my life would be over my single last breathe to which i would enjoy on the day of my death i want to enjoy life more than anything in this world but life equals death with many obvious swirls i wonder who will miss me will anyone see that i've lived my life to the fullest but how can that be i think of the days when life was so pleasent so much pain and suffering was that my big present hoping one day i will find something grand something so very special to carry with me, to hold in my hand. (Comment on this)
2:31 pm	1/6/04 i'm so very pissed to no one's belief why am i so angry my mind is as black as a dead leaf people says things behind my fuckin' back they must think it's funny to see my head crack just say the shit to my face you stupid dirty cunt you better watch you back before you pull another stunt it takes a lot to get me pissed and you know which buttons to press watch what you say bitch i'll punch you in your fuckin' chest i'll make you hurt like never before fuck with me like this your busted faced will crack the floor after i'm done i'll just sit there and stare i would watch you bleed and not even care why do i hate you? you scream up to me you are a fuckin' lie bitch just wait and see (Comment on this)
2:28 pm	Jan. 7, 2004 @ 3:37 am oh so very confused tonite can seem to relax can't sem to do anything right and i sit here and cry listening to the quietness around stressing my self out i fall, my head hits the ground laying there so sleepless and still one thing keeps running though my head just swallow the pill just sip the water and let it fall down my throught as the water tickles my tongue i picture myself begining to choke starting to cough and gasping for air just one single breathe i get nothing but dispair i struggle to get up but fall to the floor one sound opened my eyes a knock at the door someone who cares keeps pounding it seems it's loud in my head like one thousand screams why can't i get up? i'm so very scared my eyes open up and i lay there and stare so many things still running though my bruized head it was all a dream i thought i was dead. (Comment on this)
Monday, November 17th, 2003
9:48 pm	Why i life so hard? Really, I hate when people sit there and say "it get's better" that's just total bullshit! I'm tired of dealing with people who can't figure out their own problems and yet when I seek help for mine they could care less. No one wants to help me therefore why should I help them right? I give up trying to help others when I do I get shit on. Life never get's easier, it just get's harder. The one's who are strong are the one's who get through and the one's who can't just give up. I'm closer to giving up than anything else. I'm tired, I need a break. A break from what? I don't know exactly but I hope it comes soon. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
2:24 pm	Last night was a very interesting. He called, wanting to see me...should I go, or not? I asked myself. Asking my bestfriend what to do as I felt as if I couldn't think. Dazed and confused to everything around me, just thinking about him. The phone rings once again. Asking ever so sweetly if I would come over, yes was the word that came out of my mouth. Nervousness filled my body. Wondering what to expect, would it be good or bad for me to see him? who knows. I kept telling myself that it would be okay and that I shouldn't be nervous but I still was. Pulling up to his house no knowing what was coming, slowly walking to his door and knocking. Who answered....it was him, with a smile from ear to ear as if he hasn't seen me in years. Give me a hug he said, but I couldn't, not yet. Welcoming me into his home like nothing ever happened in the past. Confused. Why the sudden urge to see me? why did I go? To many questions and not a single answer. We talked for hours about how we were and what had happened. Saying he was sorry for everything that was said and that he didn't mean to hurt me. A feeling of relief knowing that he didn't hate me and that nothing that he said was true. He wanted me back. Telling me how much he missed me and that I made his life happy. Is he forgivable I asked myself over and over again? I thought a while about it and yes he was. Everyone deserves a 2nd chance. Walking me to my car. Giving me a kiss and a hug good-bye, I felt extremely happy again as he made me feel before. I'm wanted but the one I love and knowing that just made my life so much better. Happiness fills me life. (Comment on this)